I think I'm in a zone.
Not THE zone.
Not that place where athletes break records.
Not that place where artists create masterpieces.
Just a zone of my own creation. That place of inpenetrable apathy toward the things that once upset me.
I normally don't do apathy. But once in a while it serves as the emotional version of affirmative action. A means to finding my way back to the center. To that place of caring without obsessing.
In the zone, I care less that I don't have a date on Friday night, (or Thursday night, or Wednesday night, or next week or last week). In the zone, this situation is referred to as an opportunity to stop waxing.
In the zone, I eat less bread and ice cream. Out of the zone, eating them together was an eventuality.
I don't know how long my OK mood will last. My moods are nothing, if not precarious.
For now I am enjoying it. Enjoying just being. Just doing. Just going about my life.
I have no illusions that my knight in shining in armor is around the corner. More likely he is held up repairing a chink and his armor won't be out of the shop for a while.
But nonetheless, I'll hold onto the hope that when he does arrive, it will have been worth the wait.